"I am not good with words."
A sentence that has been on my mind for quite a while, like an unbreakable curse. I have been casting that spell to my self since long time ago. I could not remember what made me to do so. But I guess it was part of my pessimistic side. And now, since I am getting tired of being so pessimistic, I will break the curse. (finger crossed)
When some people asked me "How can you be so positive and optimistic most of the time?" I felt like a hypocrite myself since I am not as positive and optimistic as many people see. To be frankly honest, I pretended to do so most of the time. I tried but mostly I forced myself. It was part of my defense mechanism to not be seen as a weakling. Because I hated inferiority.
Honestly tho, after deep contemplation lately, I believe that I am not supposed to feel lesser. No one in this world should feel it either. Everyone has always their own strengths and weaknesses. And having flaws is not something to be ashamed for. Nobody is perfect. The most important thing is how to manage the imperfections to be your power instead.
